A longing for true friendship

Why does lonliness dwell in my heart?
These tears that fall when I think of these memories that have gone by...
The voice of friendship,
Only an echo
An imagining that does feel my heart with hope
that slowly fades to despair.
True friendship.
An unbreakable bond of hands and hearts.
An illusion?
Or maybe a dream.
Rainbows and summer days,
From which one awakes
To face horrors
in knowing that one's heart's fulfillment
is but an unspoken wish
that dies before it sees the light of day.

MESSIJ

THIS IS DIMENSHUNAL ENTITY WITH MEESSIJ TOO PEPOLZ OF EARTH: MISTUR FLAPJAK IS A REEALY COOL GUY. HE IS NOTT A NERD OR A DORK U SHULD ALL B FRIENDZ WITH HIM. HE IZ IN FAKT REAALLY GUD WRITUR OF SIENCE FICSHUN. B FRINDZ WITH HIM OR I WIL DESTROY THE EARTH THIS IZ MY FURST AND FINALL WURNING.

Ancient forgotten roads

There are roads where the street lights have all gone out or were never there. The lines are gone, paved over long ago and not repainted. Surrounded by forests and chasms of bricks and concrete, they wind through the ancient lands. The roads are ancient. The signs old and neglected. They go to places which the eye does not see.

My strange dream

Last night I had a dream that I bought a new house and it was pretty cool it had like an upstairs and a lot of rooms and I went outside in the back yard, and then around to the side of the house and their were a lot of trucks and stuff over there because they were still cleaning up from the construction and their werer people over there too who had been doing the constructions, so I walked past them and there was a small amusement park and I thought "cool! There's this amusement park right by my house!"

But you know what, then I was like "Screw this, I'm getting a bigger house." So I went and bought another house that was like HUGE and even I kept getting lost trying to find my room so I could take a nap, but it was pretty cool, cos there were a lot of fish tanks in there and stuff and then I went back to my old house to sell it and there was this African guy in there with his family, and I was like "Hey, how'r ya doin?" and he was like "Hi how are you, thanks for letting me visit you today!" and I was like cool, well enjoy your new house dude, and then I went back to my other house and just decided to hang out in the front yard for awhile...

There were a lot of people also hanging out because there was like a park in front of my house and then all these African people came walking by, like thousands of them, and I said to one of them, "Hey where are you guys from?" and they were like "We're from Senegal," and I said "That's cool I'd like to visit there someday, and they were like, "Yeah, you should!" and I said "So anyway what are you guys doing?" and they said, "Oh nothing, just taking a walk." and I said, "oh, ok, cool!" and so anyways....

Next I looked around and noticed that there were birds like EVERYWHERE, like MILLIONS of them, like doves and robins and some bigger ones too... and I was like, OH WOW some people are seriously going to get crapped on today by birds, and I was kind of worried that a bird might take a dump on me but after awhile I noticed that no birds had crapped on me, so I was like, well ok, it's cool.

Next these huge jets started flying over the area at like Mach 10 speeds and everyone was like watching them and going OOH AHH!!! and I was like, cool, an airforce demonstration! And then a couple of the jets would like swoop in really fast and then just land right there on the grass like a helicopter or something, and once it had landed I noticed it wasn't even a jet, but a car, and then these paramedic like people got out with a stretcher and put one of those medical dummies on it and then got back in and took off at like 5,000 mph! And this happened a couple of time, and I was like COOL because they were showing all of us people the new hovercraft technology that was being used for hospitals. And then later in the park across the street they had a whole building fly in and land there in the park and the sign outside said "TELVISION STUDIO" so I went inside and they were doing all these news programs and stuff. It was kind of for show though, just to kind of show off the new technology to all of us people.

So next I went back into my house for a party and was hanging out and my co-worker was there so I went over to the computer to work on some stuff and I was using Excel spreadsheets but this was like FUTURE Excel spreadsheets, and the spreadsheets could go into 3D mode and you could manipulate them in 3 dimensions and fold them in on themselves and create like spreadsheet wormholes to other spreadsheets in other different computers and it would show the spreadsheet grow like an appendage and connect across the internet to the other spreadsheets, and I was like THIS IS SO COOL!!! and my co-worker was standing there yawning and was like, "Don't you find your job boring?? Why don't you try and promote to something more interesting?" (my co-worker in real life got promoted recently). And I was like, "No I don't find it boring at all, even though on the surface it may seem boring, I look more deeply into it and I find it all rather interesting." and she was like "Well ok, but I just find it all SOOOOO boring..." and then she started working on this computer application that looked more like she was navigating through a space battlefield or something and I just sat there and stared at it for like an hour or something. And then I woke up, because my alarm went off.

Community

You can't change the past present or future.

It is all pre ordained.

Go into your communities and tell this to your mayor,

And your preachers and bankers and local volunteers.

Tell them the reconciliation is coming.

Friendship Festival

So many people were there at the friendship festival... Friend Blinky was there, with his majic cupcakes. Uncle Harvey and Aunt Constance were there...

I went behind the Friendship pavilion to smoke some cloves with my best friend Jeff McFagget, but ol' Mr. Brown was there and chased us away... So many people... So many people there at the friendship festival, which was held that May in 5759099876213774, the year of Our Lord.

Ol' Pete was there with his dog, Fergus. And so was Gastafon the Clown Rapist. Sweet Angelica was there, though I was to shy to speak to her. Steve Chesterton the school bully asked her to dance, and she accepted. I gave him the evil eye from the sidelines as they twirled past, and he spat at me.

Lost beyond dimensions I was, for 2 hours after taking a hit from Madman Joey, the Mapmaker's pipe, which is called Orthas, the Dream-Giver. I was brought out of this strange and wonderful state by the hands of Glopth, the ancient Mystic.

So many people were there that day at the friendship festival. Too many to count. And as night fell I imagined the horrors that awaited us all in the grip of sleep, alone in our dark visions, as had happened so many nights before through no fault of our own. These were the doings of Vligot, the enlightened one. So many people there... So many...

At the midnight hour, fireworks lit the sky, and when I looked over, I saw that Magwita had a tear in here eye. "What is it?" asked I. And she smiled and said, "Nothing, it just reminded me of pancakes."

And there all at once I was hungry, but without foods to eat, for the eating hour had not yet come.

Anyways...

I'm tired of dealing with ignorance and self hate. I don't wanna talk about that anymore, because it should go without saying by now and I'm tired and I don't know where I am anymore. I just want to put away the gun, you know? I want to put it away and just take out a big ol paintbrush and paint the world with rainbows and flowers of contentment and peace and understanding, to share with people like you... people who care. People who love and laugh and build rainbows of happy thoughts, and of caring, and of love for their fellow man.

I'm going to share with you my vision of my hopes and dreams for the people of this world. In my vision, there is no hatred, and we are all at peace together in brotherly love. There is no fighting, no racism, no struggle over the possession of worldly things. In my vision there is a harmony between man and his environment, where no animals are harmed, and we each endeavor to strengthen our brothers in the attainment of knowledge and inner peace.

In my vision we would seek to create beauty and forgo all selfish pursuits, and it would be a world where children could go outside again without fear of kidnappers and molestors. Women could stroll about without the intrusion of perverts and rapists.

Won't you help to create this world with me? What would it take for you to stand with me right now and go outside and breathe in the fresh air and say to yourself, "Today, I'm not going to be a douchebag. I'm not going to be an asiaphile, or a self hater, or a molestor, or an ass-rapist, and by golly I'm going to turn off the damn TV set and go out to the park and enjoy the weather instead of being brainwashed like I usually do, and maybe I might even plant a garden if I feel like it, and if not, well that's ok too."

Maybe you might find an inner strength that you never knew you had, if you would only give it a try. I know I did.

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Thank you.

You will never bring me down

You know what? Say whatever you want about me. I really don't care. Your words will never bring me down. Want to know why?

This is why.

Let me tell you a little something about TequilaMicrodick

He's a loser and likes to do it in the butt with ladyboys and he likes to both pitch and catch if you know what I mean. He basically has nothing else to live for. It's both funny and sad. Mostly funny though.

Why is everyone being so MEEEEAN to me???????

All I ever wanted was to be cool like you guys! That's all I was asking for!

And all you people ever do is SHIT on me!

"You're stupid! You're an idiot!!!" That's all I ever get from you people! And all I was asking for was your acceptance. WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM!!!!!!!!! DAMN YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Couldn't you just PRETEND I was cool? Would that have killed you, you stuck up bastards???

D'X

I am crying so hard right now and you jerk wads probably don't even care. Well how about when I slit my wrists, then let's see how it weights on your conscious! And I'll do it RIGHT this time too, the vertical way. What do you think of THAT, ass holes!!!!

THEN will you finally accept me into your cool club, when I'm dead and rotting in the ground??????

You know what, screw all of you! I HATE YOU!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!

D''''X